addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
not today
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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why'd you have to mess my head up again.
i'm just the worst mess you've ever seen. keeping quiet because i don't want them to know i'm screwing up. i don't want to let them down. not again.
i need to know if it's time to let go. but the thought of it throws me into a deep hole.. i'm so used to this routine, i can't imagine life without it.
everywhere i turn, i see faces of disappointment. i never meant for it to be this way.. why does it feel like i'm screwing up real bad.. ARGH.
please,
don't tell me it's worthless.
all of this..
it can't be...
it just can't...
not again.
please...
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY.
i can'tttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.